[Blast From The Past....M]
written @ [//2:55 a.m.] on [//2007-11-20]
M texted me a couple of weeks ago and I'm glad that he's doing ok. Sometimes I wanna just see him. There's a part of me that hasn't let go of him fully. I still think about him at times, but I know I have to get over those small traces of feelings I still have of him. After all, I have a amazing guy in my life. M and I never really had anything, but a mere friendship or if I should even call it that. I had stronger feelings for him than he had for me. I truly liked this dude and wanted to take it to the next level. But from the beginning there were lies. For instance, him lying about what he "did" for a living, his baby mama drama, and etc.
I still don't understand why there is a piece of me still trying to hold on to something that never was. I haven't really seen and talked to him in a long time.
Maybe if I see him it will make things better, but I can't bring myself to do it in fear of DB finding out. And plus why should I wanna see him after the bullshit lies and me looking like a dumbass for having stronger feelings for him than what he had for me?!?
I'm just confused...
UPDATE: I ended up seeing him not too long after I posted this entry. We got a chance to catch up on some things. We went out to eat at Chilli's and talked for a bit. It was nice seeing him. In my heart I wanted to kiss him, but of course that would've been the wrong thing to do. I love DB too much and I couldn't bring myself to do something like that. I haven't heard from M ever since last year. I'm so glad that when I did see him I remained faithful.
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About Me:24yrs young. former military brat. african american female. true aaliyah fan. college graduate. loves 90's r&b music. shy at times. loves photography. goofy. wanna know more?
